I checked my friendster account this morning and his comment made me smile. He just thanked me because of a song that I downloaded for him, and he also say thank you for being nice, it really made my day. Big time! then I checked one of the bulletin that he posted, and it says there that he called his ex, that ruined my day. Big time! Im jealous because he never called me. It sucks knowing that you can only be nice to a person and that person you want to have cannot call you back. I dont know, maybe I am just expecting so much. Maybe he doesnt have a single interest in me which also sucks but it is my fault that I am falling for him so much. I am falling for him big time. Now, I want to forget him. But will I be able to do it? I hope so...

So right now I am on this mood, let me dedicate this song to myself:

Save Me

by STACIE ORRICO

Lately I've been feelin kinda heavy
Could it be all the baggage im carrying
I had a guy who wasn't right
Talk about love and i gotta think twice
I mean he really worked a number
Up in my mind when I was open
Not just my lover, was my best friend
But he stole my heart and kept runnin

It's either love or life I want it all
But sometimes I may not get all the calls
Will you pick me up baby when I fall
Keep me safe in your arms
I know I might be movin slow
We can pick it up later down the road
Its a bit difficult to give you control
But let`s see where it goes

[CHORUS:]
Cause I've been lied to, cheated on
But you can make it right
If you can come and save me, save me
So wont you come and save me, save me
I can't trust, the truth be told
But you can make it right
If you can come and save me, save me
I'll let you come save me, save me

So far my life has been crazy
Like a reality show
But baby can you take the drama out my life
Make me forget all the tears that i've cried
Oh I think I better warn ya
What you see ain't just what you gon' get
Pieces of me aint right, they're still left
Can you pull them together

Its either love or life I want it all
But sometimes I may not get all the calls
Will you pick me up baby when I fall
Keep me safe in your arms
I know I might be movin slow
We can pick it up later down the road
Its a bit difficult to give you control
But let's see where it goes

[CHORUS]
I was trapped within my pain
Not long agoIt's still hard
But I try to do the best I can
Understand if my heart breaks again
It's already done, its over
Cause I know my heart will never mend
But you can make it right
Ohhh, ooohYou're gonna make it right
Ohhhh yeah yeah

[CHORUS x2]

Your love is saving me
Ohhh

You have to save yourself LJ! No one will, you have to rely on yourself!