balancing him and him

I am maneuvering on this stupid balance beam.

I dont want to make someone happy and sad at the same time...

I dont want to make my life complicated but I dont want it it to be boring...

I really never planned to fall, but now it's here, What will I do?

Which side of the balance beam will I make my last somersault? Right or Left? My stable current or my unsure future?