When all is said and done, there will only be five people in our lives in the course of love:

1. The one whom where we felt love first.

2. The one who was so perfect but got away.

3. The one who hurt you the most that you could barely take the pain

4. The one you fell in love with but only treated you as a best friend, and:

5. The one you would walk the aisle and exchange vows with

We went to malate last tuesday, because we are sick and tired of going to sukina after shifts.

It was a fun night, a lot of things happened. Maybe this song will tell you part of what happened. haha!!!

My current last song syndrome...syndrome...syndrome...eh eh eh!



Rihanna - Umbrella lyrics

This past days, I have turned into a constant drinker.

I have friends from work who really drink a lot, and being the subtle and casual drinker that I am. I am not used to having that time of lifestyle. Straight from work we will go to Sukina, I will go home at 9 am and then work again that night. Its like committing suicide right?

Though, it haven't affected me in a crazy and embarrassing way, I am still trying to control it. Aside from the fact that I will save more money, I know that it is better to be back to an occasional drinker again.

something inspiring...

Tuesdays with Morrie

"Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that youcan trust them, too - even when you’rein the dark. Even when you’re falling."

"Love is how you stay alive, even after you are gone."

"If we can remember the feeling of love we once had, we can die without evergoing away."

The Alchemist

When you want something, the whole Universe conspires to help you realize your desire

A Walk To Remember

How can you see places like this... and have moments like this and not believe?

WindStruck

Sorry is not in my dictionary. If you want to hear it, change your name to Sorry. Then I'll call you Sorry!

A Lot like Love

I know I'm probably six years to late...but will you give me strike one back? Honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid you don't deserve to be in love.

Before Sunset

Memory's a wonderful thing if you don'thave to deal with the past. You can never replace anyone because everyone is made up of such beautiful specific details. There are so many things I want to do, but I end up doing not much

Life is Beautiful

The game starts now. You have to score one thousand points. If you do that, you take home a tank with a big gun. Each day we will announce the scores from that loud speaker. The one who has the fewest points will have to wear a sign that says "Jackass" on his back. Ther eare three ways to lose points. One,turning into a big cry baby. Two, telling us you want to see your mommy. Three, saying you're hungry and want something to eat.

I love taking pictures. And since we are bored in the boarding house yesterday, I started taking pictures of my housemates in black and white, and above are the results of unadulterated boredom. Good thing my hands are not shaking!

Our Picture with our new hair

So it is back to basics.

I colored my hair brown again, hehe... I dont know. I just got tired sporting my green with matching pink hair, and it is getting messy also, because the color started to fade. So Its back to brown. It is back to basic.

"There’s nothing wrong with hitting rock bottom (or going bankrupt), as long as you know how to handle it. It has happened to me 4 times already since I’ve been here. It’s very important not to whine and wallow in self-pity. It is a rejuvenating process, both mentally and physically if looked at in a positive manner. It’s actually no problem at all if you use your brain and do a little living off the land. You have to look around you and see what can be used. Whether it’d be gathering wood and/or bamboo for making a fire, or utilizing your domesticated animals if you have any, or taking advantage of your skills in order to hunt, fish, and forage, these are some possible options. I have planted some crops and invested in some chickens specifically for the purpose of getting through these situations. I am also fortunate enough to be close to the mountains and jungles where I can forage for fruits and other “ligaw” or wild foods that may be found. Always remember that Mother Nature has provided a means of survival that our ancestors have used and that we can use today. Some Aetas and other natives around the world still live off the raw land up to this very day."

-The Coconuter's Champorado

Since I have plans of saving money, and this day cannot get any boring, I viewed some bank products offered by different banks here in the Philippines.

First, I looked at Metrobank, because it is the one nearest from my abode. Also, MBTC has a good reputation in the banking industry (being a banking and finance graduate, I should no) And there is this Metrobank E.T. Savings Account, which you can open for as low as P2,000, have your own atm, but you will start earning interest for P5,000. But when I checked their terms and conditions, there is this line saying that in order you have an atm, you should have a maintaining balance of P10, 000. Am, possible, but i dont want to have that high maintaining balance because it is too high.

Next, BPI. I looked at BPI because it is the second nearest bank in our house, I want a bank that if I have a problem with my statement, I can just take a pedicab and I can fix it. Moving back to BPI, but I got confused with their website so I just stopped. I think that having a confusing website is a little fishy.

Third, is Banco De Oro, because my friend has a BDO account already, BDO is also near from our house and work place, lastly, BDO is open on saturdays and sundays which make it more convenient! I also got confused with their website because they have products for old people (60+), teens ( 13 to 19), and juniors (which I am sure I am not included). But where is the one for the 22 year old? Where is the one for the call center people?

It has been a tiring day and I haven't made a decision yet. But right now, I am thinking of having a bank with BDO. But until I have finalized my decision that is when I will start inquiring personally, and I don't have another valid ID, which is another thing added to my iterinary for next week.

So let's be kids again! I just watched High School Musical 2, and i got bored! The movie was good, but I think the first one was better. Because I feel that the whole movie just focused on Troy and Gabriela's relationship. The music was good though, and for me, this is the best song in the movie.

Kyla is really one of my favorite artist, ever since she started, I am so fond of her. My current LSS is her version of cupid, I just love her relaxing voice and humble personality. Lastly, if she will revive a song, it will surely be a hit. I know this one will....

Joyce and I were chatting this afternoon in regard to her new apple of the eye. I really can't remember what we talked about but all I remember was this song that I dedicated to her.

Cupid

by Kyla

album: Beautiful Days (2006)

Boy if I told you I love you
That doesn't mean that I don't care, oooh
And when I tell you I need you
Don't you think that I'll can never be there, ooooh

Baby I'm so tired of the way you turn my words into
Deception and lies
Don't misunderstand me when I try to speak my mind
I'm only saying what's in my heart
Cupid doesn't lie
But you won't know unless you give it a try
Oh baby, true love
won't lie but you won't know unless we give it a try
give it a try

Boy when I ask you to trust me
That doesn't mean that I'm gonna cheat on you
Cuz I'm gonna never do anything to hurt you
Or mislead you, I love you

Baby I'm so tired of the way you turn my words into
Deception and lies
Don't misunderstand me when I try to speak my mind
I'm only saying what's in my heart
Cupid doesn't lie
But you won't know unless you give it a try
Oh baby, true love
won't lie but you won't know unless we give it a try
give it a try

Ain't no doubt about it
Lord no, I really mean it
I rather die before I, before I lie to you
Never wanna leave you
Ain't no life without you
Never gonna leave, never gonna go,
No.No, no, no, no, no, no, no, ohhhh

Baby I'm so tired of the way you turn my words into
Deception and lies
Don't misunderstand me when I try to speak my mind
I'm only saying what's in my heart
Cupid doesn't lie
But you won't know unless you give it a try
Oh baby, true love
won't lie but you won't know unless we give it a try
give it a try

Ain't no doubt about it
Lord no, I really mean it
I rather die before I, before I lie to you
Never wanna leave you
Ain't no life without you
Never gonna leave, never gonna go,
No.No, no, no, no, no, no, no, ohhhh

Being in a diet sucks.

Yeah, I am on a diet. And I feel that I am killing myself already. Since last week, I stopped eating rice and tried my best to indulge on having vegies for lunch and bread for dinners. I am also not having lunch at the office at work.

And now, my roommates treated us for pizza and I can't even have a bite. huhu...

I really hate the feeling that I have right now, because I hate depriving myself. But since we are in a world where everyone wants to look good, and looking good is generally slim, toned and have an amazing built, I am doing this. Well, it is for my own good! I just hope that I will be able to pull this off.

one of the best songs ever created

Guess what's Funny in this picture?

I dont want to offend anyone, but I love this pic.

Hay, Zyrah, miss na kita...sayang di man lang tayo nakapagkita nung asa pinas ka. :p

I am planning to take glutathione...kamusta naman? hehe... So I linked a useful site that will able us to understand what glutha is all about.

http://www.medicinenet.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=50746

I have one conversation using yahoo messenger regarding how i feel about the industry, basically, i just answer all my friend's questions...

jbalote19: masasabi bang may growth naman kapag nasa call center?
cloud alexander alejandro: i dont know, something banking ang trabaho ko
jbalote19: kasi yung iba kong friend sinasabi nila stagnant nalang sila eh, sa call center
cloud alexander alejandro: am, if you will ask me, seriously. I will say tama ang mga friends mo.
cloud alexander alejandro: I have been in this industry for 3 years, since college pa, at first, it is fun, the pay is high, you can drink coffee at starbucks as often as you want, have fine dinners at greenbelt, if you want to go to a resort every week, that will be possible
jbalote19: but then...
cloud alexander alejandro: but, now that i have been here, it is getting boring, tiring and irritating...
jbalote19: mmm.... ok
cloud alexander alejandro: you will feel that everything is so monotonous, stagnant and just the same
cloud alexander alejandro: its hard...some say, that it is an easy job pero it is the toughest job to be dedicated with
cloud alexander alejandro:
jbalote19: if your doing it for almost 3 years that's what you will feel
jbalote19: hehehehe
cloud alexander alejandro: yeah...
cloud alexander alejandro: its been a while na, well during that time naman, i was still studying so it was fun and cool
jbalote19: ah ok
cloud alexander alejandro: but now, pakiramdam ko, mamamatay ako sa kabagutan kada araw
jbalote19: ngak
jbalote19: hehehehe
cloud alexander alejandro: uu...
jbalote19: planning to move out of call center industry?
cloud alexander alejandro: yeah.
cloud alexander alejandro: pero isang malaking desisyon un na i really have to think
jbalote19: can you say that working on a call center is not for long term job or goal or whatever?
cloud alexander alejandro: its not...
cloud alexander alejandro: hehe...
jbalote19: hehehe
jbalote19: so to clarify it with you, its just for short terms...
cloud alexander alejandro: the industry will always be here, even if you are old you will still be hired in the call center industry.
jbalote19: so to clarify it with you, its just for short terms...?
cloud alexander alejandro: its for kaartehan's sake...
jbalote19: ah ok
jbalote19: anyways i think thats true
jbalote19: coz call center can give you much money
cloud alexander alejandro: yeah...some kasi think that working in a call center is a fine job, less work more pay, di ba?
jbalote19: wherein you can buy all the things you want even if you don't need
cloud alexander alejandro: yeah,\....
jbalote19: yep
cloud alexander alejandro: pero the fact na marami rin kayong kaartehan ng mga office mates mo, i think it will be better to have a regular job
cloud alexander alejandro: kasi every morning you will have breakfast, then drink afterwards, then have coffee to be sober, then try to sleep for four hours
cloud alexander alejandro: then wake and it will be the same routine again
cloud alexander alejandro: mas marami ding vices like yosi, coffee, alcohol, mga ganun.
jbalote19: ah ok
cloud alexander alejandro: pero i love the industry. i met a lot of amazing people! but at the end of the day, you will realize that after 20 years of schooling, you will just end up answering questions from stupid americans, and having that feeling sucks.

The realization that I need a new career is killing me. Wah... I hate making decisions?

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

As part of my celebration last friday, I have this dinner with one of my most favorite person in the world. I just treated him at yellow cab. Okay, I will admit, I really like the guy. And I am trying my best for almost seven freaking months in order for him to like me. I really can't understand how I feel about him. I am happy everytime he is texting me that he is already going to work and he is going home. It made my day complete everytime he do that, actually, It's part of my routine knowing that he is on a bus, on the way to work/ home, and he is sleeping after he text me.

On the contrary, I hate it everytime he is asking me to set him up on a date. Worst, I hate it when he tells me stories about his ex's. Yeah, I am jealous. Though I know that I dont have a single right to be, I am jealous. It also hurts everytime he doubts how I feel. I still remember one of the bulettin he posted on friendster, the question during that time was: "Do you know someone who likes you? How did you know?" What was his answer? "Yata... Nabasa ko sa blog niya. :P" Stupid right.

Moving back to the dinner. It was nice, It's always nice seeing him again and seeing how simple and humble he is. I just love seeing him smile. But it hurts more to see him and realize that I am just a friend, but now, I think that being his friend is better. Because at least, I know I have another person who has my back and who will always be there for me.

Thanks, My Beautiful Disaster...Thanks for being nice and all. It is fun having you around.

I just celebrated my 22nd birthday last friday. Yikes...I am already 22, hehe... Now that I am 22, as I evaluated the 22 freaking years of my existence, this are the things that I need to work on, in short these are my goals by the next year:

1. I need to work on my built, I cannot stay fat this year, I need to have a body that is not perfect but is acceptable. Acceptable, meaning tone and lean, with less fat and flabs.

2. I must learn how to save! I know that I am not thrifty, I am not close to being one. But Right now, realizing that I am not saving anything with the money that I am earning, I need to do something about it. That means less taxi rides bound to work for you, LJ.

3. I need to work on my work ethics. Though, work sucks, and though its boring. This year, I must learn to love it.

4. I need to be mature. I must act, talk, and think my age.

5. If the work ethics thing dont work, I must find a job that will make me happy. I still dont know what it is. Any suggestions will be greatly appreciated.

6. I must invest on the future, though I am still young, it wont hurt if I started planning on my new house, este, condo unit. Whether I will buy a car or not, and whether I will have a restaurant/bar or a franchise of computer shop.

7. When it comes to relationship, I will change also, I will love myself first before anything else.

8. I need to be nice to my family. That's it!

9. I will stop complaining. I know this has been a constant problem, and this time, it must stop!

10. I will be happy with what I have now. I will try not to be hard on myself and start loving me for what I am, and what I have now.

I need to make this work. Next year, wait for my state of myself update to check whether I was able to pull this off.

This past few days, I received a lot of meaningful text messages that I guess is worth sharing on my page.


Coffee has evolved in years with cream, iced coffee, coffee with choco chips, or cookies. But no matter how people try to innovate coffee varities, It still doesnt lose its distinct aroma.

Just like us, no matter how we clothe ourselves with different personalities, still our character remains. People may destroy your image, stain your personality but they cant take away your personality.

Live...Exist...Let your character diffuse its distinct aroma. 'Cause no matter what, you are really admired by the people who know you.

Laughter is not always the best medicine.

Sometimes, it is the best disguise.

A Pencilmaker told the pencils five important lessons:

First, everything you do will leave a mark.

Second, you can always correct your mistakes.

Third, what is important is what is inside you.

Fourth, In life, you will undergo painful sharpenings that will make you a better pencil.

Last, to be the best pencil you can be, you must allow yourself to be held and be guided by the HANDS that hold you.

"You cannot hold onto anything that wants you to go. You just have to love it while you got it and that's that."

To my friends who sent me this messages, thank you. They really made my day. Keep them coming, baka next time, kasama na ang mga sinend ninyo sa susunod kong blog. hahah!!!

I checked my friendster account this morning and his comment made me smile. He just thanked me because of a song that I downloaded for him, and he also say thank you for being nice, it really made my day. Big time! then I checked one of the bulletin that he posted, and it says there that he called his ex, that ruined my day. Big time! Im jealous because he never called me. It sucks knowing that you can only be nice to a person and that person you want to have cannot call you back. I dont know, maybe I am just expecting so much. Maybe he doesnt have a single interest in me which also sucks but it is my fault that I am falling for him so much. I am falling for him big time. Now, I want to forget him. But will I be able to do it? I hope so...

So right now I am on this mood, let me dedicate this song to myself:

Save Me

by STACIE ORRICO

Lately I've been feelin kinda heavy
Could it be all the baggage im carrying
I had a guy who wasn't right
Talk about love and i gotta think twice
I mean he really worked a number
Up in my mind when I was open
Not just my lover, was my best friend
But he stole my heart and kept runnin

It's either love or life I want it all
But sometimes I may not get all the calls
Will you pick me up baby when I fall
Keep me safe in your arms
I know I might be movin slow
We can pick it up later down the road
Its a bit difficult to give you control
But let`s see where it goes

[CHORUS:]
Cause I've been lied to, cheated on
But you can make it right
If you can come and save me, save me
So wont you come and save me, save me
I can't trust, the truth be told
But you can make it right
If you can come and save me, save me
I'll let you come save me, save me

So far my life has been crazy
Like a reality show
But baby can you take the drama out my life
Make me forget all the tears that i've cried
Oh I think I better warn ya
What you see ain't just what you gon' get
Pieces of me aint right, they're still left
Can you pull them together

Its either love or life I want it all
But sometimes I may not get all the calls
Will you pick me up baby when I fall
Keep me safe in your arms
I know I might be movin slow
We can pick it up later down the road
Its a bit difficult to give you control
But let's see where it goes

[CHORUS]
I was trapped within my pain
Not long agoIt's still hard
But I try to do the best I can
Understand if my heart breaks again
It's already done, its over
Cause I know my heart will never mend
But you can make it right
Ohhh, ooohYou're gonna make it right
Ohhhh yeah yeah

[CHORUS x2]

Your love is saving me
Ohhh

You have to save yourself LJ! No one will, you have to rely on yourself!